Starting Over

I always thought that the most difficult part of doing anything worthwhile was getting started.

I was wrong.

It's getting started again.

Sometime last year, I stopped blogging. To be honest, I tapped out long before my latest post. I just kept forcing myself to write because I didn't want the blog to die.

The reasons why I blog haven't changed, and they're still as important to me as when I was updating regularly.

Writing is still one of my favourite mediums to try to understand and structure out my thoughts, and to give them a coherent voice.

I still want to try to preserve memories in more eloquent forms than just Instagram and Facebook.

And finally, if anything were to happen to me, God forbid, I like the thought of having a place my children can read when they grow up and perhaps get a better feel for who I was, if only to reinforce the truth that I love them more than life itself.

So why did I stop?

2014 was just a roller-coaster year for me. It was meant to be an awesome year of so many new and exciting beginnings, but instead it became a year of endings. I ended my tenure at two different companies, one of which I had been in for over nine years. I exited the side business that I had been part of for over six years since helping to found it.

It's been a long time since I had felt so completely out of control of my life and circumstances.

I opened up my blog numerous times to write but I didn't want to fill it with the negativity that I was feeling, and so I would close it up again, sometimes with a half-written post which would remain unpublished forever.

I've decided not to go into a lot of the details of what happened last year. Things haven't turned around yet and I'm currently unemployed.

But I do know that I want to get back into writing especially about things I feel that this blog is about, such as family. So one of the things I resolve to do this year is to take time to distance myself from my personal challenges and to reflect on what is good.

I'm not going to set myself any goals for this blog but as of today it's ground zero again and I'm going to start writing from this starting point.

Here is my first step.

Categories: Life, Update