I've never been an individual who carefully maps out his life and future. In fact, I'm known to be rather impulsive and spontaneous; I love learning new things and starting ventures with incredible passion but it often fizzles out after awhile.
Every year I set resolutions and unless they are structured to be vague and general, I tend not to fulfil them. The success of delivering on specific goals and resolutions comes about more as a random event of unexpected providence than a systematic accomplishment of planned milestones.
And honestly, I've been able to get away with it so far. I've managed to complete all my studies satisfactorily (not aiming for As but maybe a comfortable B), I'm not in debt meaning that even though I've tried unsuccessfully to maintain a budget since college days, the inflow has still been greater than the outflow, I'm doing just about average in my career, and I'm still able to contribute some value to church for God.
Some might even say (particularly my parents) I aim for mediocrity...or at best to be just a normal, regular joe. A big part of me is content with hitting the middle range when compared to a pool of people in any area of my life. But of course, this does provide quite a conflict within me because it has been drilled into me to be ambitious and to constantly better myself, so whether I like it or not, these are two very distinct and influential sides to who I am.
I've decided this year to have another general and vague resolution, except that this one's going to be a big one. I want to start following through on what I start on and maintain my passion for the things I commit to over the long-term. This might mean that I have to curb my enthusiasm in the beginning and approach things with more planning and wisdom, but things have to change this year.
My previous approach is not going to cut it anymore. There are things in my life now where the ball absolutely cannot drop and the stakes are getting higher. I've realised that I can't approach things in the usual haphazard and spontaneous way because the cracks, which started appearing are getting larger and larger, and I can't seem to find a way to patch them up until I get sufficiently serious about it.
Hence the new blog. It will help me to structure out my thoughts in the areas which are causing me significant challenges and difficulties during this time of my life. It will allow me to put experiences down on 'paper' to properly reflect on what I could do better. And hopefully, those who happen to stumble into this space will find something that benefits them as well.
I guess the underlying question here will be: Will this blog survive the year?
(Anyone care to place bets?)
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